So last night I ended up playing Hide and Seek with a couple other humans and uh... Megatron. The Robot leader of the Decepticon uprising from the movie Transformers was of course, the one chasing us. The only way I knew how to hide was by sprinting as far away as possible but he finished counting before I could get all the way across the giant grassy hillside and must have seen me slide along the dirty ground into the cavern-like structure very similar to a baseball player slides into home plate when they know that’s the only chance they have making it safely. I say this because as soon as made it into the low ceiling stone building, the entire edifice lifted off of the ground and I was once again exposed in the wintry air. I tried to run again, sprinting around his giant metal legs and around a corner but only two seconds later I was lifted into the air by his claws and declared the next “seeker”. Game Over.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
A New Kind of Dream
You remember back in elementary school when teachers gave you a crayon and a blank piece of paper asking about your future? Telling us to draw what we wanted to become once we grew up? Well I do. I also remember maybe second grade when I didn't even hesitate. I immediately gripped the crayon tight in my hand, leaned in close and got to work swinging my short little legs back and forth underneath the chair taking advantage of the fact that they were too short to reach the tiled floor. A minute passed and I was already finished. The teacher walked over ready to question whatever I had drawn and force me to elaborate on my future plans because of the limited amount of time I spent creating them. I took one look back at the giant smiley face that I had placed carefully on the off white surface. She looked at me then back at the paper and just smiled before walking over to her desk, picking up an extra piece of paper and giving me yet another blank slate. I knew what I had wanted to be…smiling and happy. I was a kid and I had aspirations to be me. It really wasn’t that complicated. The second piece of paper told me I had to be a little more specific…and it remained blank for a whole lot longer.
Have you ever dreamed of becoming someone? Of doing something famous? I used to think that one day I was going to be a lawyer. Typical, right? I just always found different legal cases intriguing and thought that maybe one day I could be smart enough to accomplish this goal. I wanted to play on the USA field hockey and Lacrosse teams. I wanted to be an artist, a singer, a musician. I wanted to invent new games that all the kids in the neighborhood would play. I wanted to do a lot of things. So I went for it.
I played field hockey and lacrosse and practiced every week day for a very long time. I participated in art quest when I was younger and have never stopped doodling. I belt out songs without even thinking about what environment I am in or whether or not it’s truly embarrassing the way my notes come out wrong and I hardly ever know all the words. I was also a member of my school’s band starting off with the recorder in elementary school and then developing slowly into the clarinet, the bass clarinet, and finally the tenor saxophone for marching band at my high school. I didn’t make it to the professional level in any of my activities, no. But that’s not the point. The fact that I had fun? That’s the point. I did what I wanted to do.
I was rumbling through old facebook notes the one survey asked a question about my goals that brought back a lot of these memories. Now around this time I think I was maybe ninth or tenth grade. My answer? To finish my gold award project. In March 2010, after a full year I finally completed this project.
Today my younger brother had his own Eagle Scout Ceremony. The small church room was packed with fellow scouts, families and friends from all walks of life and it made me feel good to see how many people Eric has influenced over the years. At one point in the middle of the ceremony a former scout master made a comment about the rarity of finding an Eagle Scout within the community. My family has two. Another boy scout made a comment about how my little brother pepped up a losing volleyball team by singing Lady Gaga causing them to loosen up and eventually win first place. And a third about how he was thinking about quitting the troop until he met Eric and his crazy personality. Eric had a big impact on his troop and his community. Brad did too. I like to think maybe I do too. Not to their troop obviously, but to my own Girl Scout troop, to the community as a whole. What do you think? How do you really know?
I know recently I’ve been kind of off track with this dream blog. Though over the past two days complete with a random all nighter that had nothing to do with anything and a friend of a friend coming to visit bringing about hide and seek, hop, and five hour energy… I’ve had a total of maybe five hours of sleep. This sleep deprivation tends to then make it difficult to report on a dream blog. Unless however, I was documenting on a different kind of dream. The one that drives people to do what they do and become who they want to become. My dream as a little kid was to be happy. My dream today is to be happy. I AM happy J
Have you ever dreamed of becoming someone? Of doing something famous? I used to think that one day I was going to be a lawyer. Typical, right? I just always found different legal cases intriguing and thought that maybe one day I could be smart enough to accomplish this goal. I wanted to play on the USA field hockey and Lacrosse teams. I wanted to be an artist, a singer, a musician. I wanted to invent new games that all the kids in the neighborhood would play. I wanted to do a lot of things. So I went for it.
I played field hockey and lacrosse and practiced every week day for a very long time. I participated in art quest when I was younger and have never stopped doodling. I belt out songs without even thinking about what environment I am in or whether or not it’s truly embarrassing the way my notes come out wrong and I hardly ever know all the words. I was also a member of my school’s band starting off with the recorder in elementary school and then developing slowly into the clarinet, the bass clarinet, and finally the tenor saxophone for marching band at my high school. I didn’t make it to the professional level in any of my activities, no. But that’s not the point. The fact that I had fun? That’s the point. I did what I wanted to do.
I was rumbling through old facebook notes the one survey asked a question about my goals that brought back a lot of these memories. Now around this time I think I was maybe ninth or tenth grade. My answer? To finish my gold award project. In March 2010, after a full year I finally completed this project.
Today my younger brother had his own Eagle Scout Ceremony. The small church room was packed with fellow scouts, families and friends from all walks of life and it made me feel good to see how many people Eric has influenced over the years. At one point in the middle of the ceremony a former scout master made a comment about the rarity of finding an Eagle Scout within the community. My family has two. Another boy scout made a comment about how my little brother pepped up a losing volleyball team by singing Lady Gaga causing them to loosen up and eventually win first place. And a third about how he was thinking about quitting the troop until he met Eric and his crazy personality. Eric had a big impact on his troop and his community. Brad did too. I like to think maybe I do too. Not to their troop obviously, but to my own Girl Scout troop, to the community as a whole. What do you think? How do you really know?
I know recently I’ve been kind of off track with this dream blog. Though over the past two days complete with a random all nighter that had nothing to do with anything and a friend of a friend coming to visit bringing about hide and seek, hop, and five hour energy… I’ve had a total of maybe five hours of sleep. This sleep deprivation tends to then make it difficult to report on a dream blog. Unless however, I was documenting on a different kind of dream. The one that drives people to do what they do and become who they want to become. My dream as a little kid was to be happy. My dream today is to be happy. I AM happy J
Friday, December 10, 2010
A Letter to a Stranger
Hello Stranger.
I have seen a lot of post-it notes floating around recently aimed towards strangers armed with inspiration messages and I felt inspired. I also feel like maybe, just maybe... this too might get around to someone who needs a smile or uplifting thought. I think the most important thing in life is to just take a second to appreciate such small acts of kindness presented before you. It's the small things that make the world go round. Now I wish I could say that I actually follow this advice that I'm about to give you...and it's not that I don't try to, because I do. Honestly. But nobody's perfect. That's also why I'm not quite sure if I'm writing this more for you ... or for me.
1. Don't judge people. You never know when that "girly girl" is gonna become one of your closest friends.
2. Leave nothing unsaid. Tell people how you feel and don't be afraid to do so. This is probably the hardest thing to do because of feelings and drama tied to every word. But you know what? If you tell them how you really feel now, then you're not hiding anything and I know for a fact. Being able to express yourself. Truly express yourself is a rare occurance. If someone is kind enough to give you that opportunity. Grasp it with both hands and hold on tight.
3. Laugh. I tell you, it makes everything better. Especially when you've just been putting on a dramatic song and dance performance in your own room wrapped up in a dog leash that happened to be hooked on to the handle of the wardrobe in your dorm room, when you can't sing and dance in the first place... and you lean too far to the right not just falling to the floor but taking the whole dang door with you. Don't think about how much money it's going to cost to repair such a wardrobe.. in fact don't even think. just laugh. and yes... that did happen to me. Don't ask about why I have a dog leash tied to my dresser either haha let's just say I tend to wander a lot and they thought it fitting to restrain me :)
4. Help someone else out. Don't think about what's in it for you. Just do it. Remember it's the small things that make life beautiful. So make someone else's life beautiful by doing small things.
5. Exercise. Get into a routine. And don't ever mess it up. Then mess it up just to see what happens but don't you dare forget to get back into it. That's the hardest part. I started working out with the help of a girl on my hall but that ended pretty quick. I tried to do it on my own by using youtube workout videos. Eight minute abs with the shirtless man in the grass encouraging me through the whole process: "What do you want your buns to look like?" I tell you, it makes you work harder. Either way, I've stopped and I need to get back into it. Remind me someday?
6. Pray. Whether you believe in a higher power or not because sometimes it just doesn't matter. keep on asking. don't give up, because God's timing is perfect, and he will answer :)
7. Pay attention in class. This may seem ironic because I’m actually typing this in English class but honestly, they’re not lying when they say an education is one of the most important things an individual can possess.
8. Stop Complaining. This is life. Don't fight it, live it!
9. Learn How to use a camera. Use it. Pictures are some of the most valuable and cherished memories one can have.
10. Be. Random. And. Just. Go. For. It.
So yeah. I think, being it's 3:31 in the morning I might call it a night. But stranger, thank you for letting me speak to you. Thank you for reading. Made me feel better at least. Now, maybe. Just maybe. We can be friends?
Catch ya later,
S.
I have seen a lot of post-it notes floating around recently aimed towards strangers armed with inspiration messages and I felt inspired. I also feel like maybe, just maybe... this too might get around to someone who needs a smile or uplifting thought. I think the most important thing in life is to just take a second to appreciate such small acts of kindness presented before you. It's the small things that make the world go round. Now I wish I could say that I actually follow this advice that I'm about to give you...and it's not that I don't try to, because I do. Honestly. But nobody's perfect. That's also why I'm not quite sure if I'm writing this more for you ... or for me.
1. Don't judge people. You never know when that "girly girl" is gonna become one of your closest friends.
2. Leave nothing unsaid. Tell people how you feel and don't be afraid to do so. This is probably the hardest thing to do because of feelings and drama tied to every word. But you know what? If you tell them how you really feel now, then you're not hiding anything and I know for a fact. Being able to express yourself. Truly express yourself is a rare occurance. If someone is kind enough to give you that opportunity. Grasp it with both hands and hold on tight.
3. Laugh. I tell you, it makes everything better. Especially when you've just been putting on a dramatic song and dance performance in your own room wrapped up in a dog leash that happened to be hooked on to the handle of the wardrobe in your dorm room, when you can't sing and dance in the first place... and you lean too far to the right not just falling to the floor but taking the whole dang door with you. Don't think about how much money it's going to cost to repair such a wardrobe.. in fact don't even think. just laugh. and yes... that did happen to me. Don't ask about why I have a dog leash tied to my dresser either haha let's just say I tend to wander a lot and they thought it fitting to restrain me :)
4. Help someone else out. Don't think about what's in it for you. Just do it. Remember it's the small things that make life beautiful. So make someone else's life beautiful by doing small things.
5. Exercise. Get into a routine. And don't ever mess it up. Then mess it up just to see what happens but don't you dare forget to get back into it. That's the hardest part. I started working out with the help of a girl on my hall but that ended pretty quick. I tried to do it on my own by using youtube workout videos. Eight minute abs with the shirtless man in the grass encouraging me through the whole process: "What do you want your buns to look like?" I tell you, it makes you work harder. Either way, I've stopped and I need to get back into it. Remind me someday?
6. Pray. Whether you believe in a higher power or not because sometimes it just doesn't matter. keep on asking. don't give up, because God's timing is perfect, and he will answer :)
7. Pay attention in class. This may seem ironic because I’m actually typing this in English class but honestly, they’re not lying when they say an education is one of the most important things an individual can possess.
8. Stop Complaining. This is life. Don't fight it, live it!
9. Learn How to use a camera. Use it. Pictures are some of the most valuable and cherished memories one can have.
10. Be. Random. And. Just. Go. For. It.
So yeah. I think, being it's 3:31 in the morning I might call it a night. But stranger, thank you for letting me speak to you. Thank you for reading. Made me feel better at least. Now, maybe. Just maybe. We can be friends?
Catch ya later,
S.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Nightmare?
I know at some point in my life I've had a bad dream, but I guess I never paid attention. I don't remember ever having a nightmare in the past. I didn't wake up screaming but I know that the image of the mutilated, scarred face last night in the middle of my dream will stick with me for a while there's no doubt about that.
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